What do words mean ?
How can I not understand their meaning ?
I see a rock, I call it a “rock”, πετρα, it is a rock.
I see a bird. I say: This is a “bird”, πουλη. It is a bird.
I understand the meaning of these.
I say “I love you”.
I understand the meaning of those words. They mean:
You say: “I am yours, all of me. Forever”.
I think – I thought – I understand the meaning of THOSE words.
But they seem to to have taken on a different meaning.
What was said is no longer true.
I simply do not understand
the meaning of words.
I know words.
They are my armor, my shield
One day, I know, they will become lost to me, useless
Like rusted mail.
But for now, they are my strength.
So why do I no longer understand ?
What viral process has affected my heart so
now that our paths diverge,
now that you seek to determine if this other is what you want ?
It weakens me. It scars me. It makes me, illiterate.
And to whom will I speak of this ?
Not even you, whom I thought was – think is ? – my half.
What can I say ? How can I say it ?
How will you ever step from this box in which you find yourself ?
It denies you.
Your ability to contribute.
How ? If I, your guide, have become fluently aphasic, illiterate.
Time is so short. Do you not see ?
I know the meaning of words.
Why then, am I lost amongst so many of them ?
Why this dull, grey mist enveloping me where once, brilliant, you stood ?
My Batini, tell me.
Far from you.